Some people say high school is their best time, and although high school was fun, but college was my favorite time. College…was just fun. I can’t explain it in the time that I have right now (since bed time is in 10 minutes) but I knew I grew the most during college. I met the most amazing people, the friends that I still keep in touch with and I know a lot of things that happened in college made me who I am today (after all those failing grades? Hoo boy, who’s not going to learn from that? :P). I will always look back at college with fond memories, the way I would probably do if I had a chance to go on Disney vacations.
College was also the time I was in the most spiritual high. College was the peak of my YFC years and I can’t deny the fact that I got to know God better during my college years. Back then it felt like I would never ever leave that lifestyle, but it’s amazing how a new environment can change one person. And it’s not something I am proud of.
I miss college for the fact that it was easier to stick to God’s side back then. The struggles were simpler (well, as I think about it now :P), and…well, there’s an amazing support group that was always present at the tambayan. Right now…everything’s just…difficult and different.
I miss college.
I’d like to quote Avalon on this song, First Love, which I really loved back in high school:
I used to be the one
Who would long to hear your voice
A child who sought to win his Father’s heart
But as I carried on
Life got a hold on me
Now here I am, a child so far from homeTell me when did I lose my first love?
Where did the fire and passion go?
Burn in me Your holy fire
Give me back my lost desire
And restore in me the love I felt for You.Can I remember how it felt
When they looked into my face
And they saw the love of Jesus in my eyes
When I look back on my life
And question where I’ve been
Can I really say I’ve done my best for you?
I miss who I used to be in college.
I miss You.
I think He misses you too =) Parts of the ups and downs.
Confession and communion and prayer time, here we come!
I miss college too for many of the same reasons! Even though I am not proud of my every moment, college was almost a surreal / virtual type of experience where the possibilities were endless. Worries existed–but they were nothing compared to what life has brought me now as a married, carrer man and father. I was never closer to God either—I shared a faith community and was active in all kinds of activities from Habitat for humanity to leading retreats. I still feel close to God–but college allowed for a more constant, pure spiritual experience for me. It was just a special time. I miss the long walks / talks with friends…walking around campus and the lagoon reflecting and alone with my thoughts…or even seein’ the faces of roomates and neighbors on a constant basis. How quickly the train arrives and departs. I wish my memory was better–too bad i didn’t have a video camera with me more often then….lol….or was it? :) Thanks for the thoughts and the song. I’ll look into it. A song that I will leave you with is one that i always listened to in college…
Pear Jam: “Untitled”
Got a car
I got some gas
Oh, let’s get out of here
Get out of here fast
Oh everyone’s confused
So I stay in my room
If i go I don’t want,
to go,
alone…
I hope you get this message
Or youre not home
I could be there in 10 minutes or so….
Oh I got my things….
We can make it up as we go along….
Oh with you I couldn’t
Ever
Be alone….
Never…
Be…
Alone…..