One of the reasons I think that my blog isn’t a household name (haha dream on, Tina!) is because of my apathy. I’m probably one of the most apathetic person when it comes to blogging except for things I care about of course. I mean, I hardly blog about current events, or what’s up with showbiz or whatever unless it’s directly related to me. This is why I hardly post in my “opinion” category, and whenever I post about things related to artists I like, it’s not about what’s up with them, unless I absolutely love them enough to post a lot about them. But for any other thing, I can honestly say that I couldn’t care less.

It’s not a good thing, I know. Back in high school, I used to pride myself in being the “abstainer”. I never used to make an opinion, in fear of getting into arguments. I hated debates, and the most terrifying moment of my life back in high school was when we had to have a debate for English class. I used to think choosing sides is not a way to win anything, and abstaining is always the best way.

And then I came across this quote:

The hottest place in Hell is reserved for those who remain neutral in times of great moral conflict. (Martin Luther King Jr)

Talk about…very shaking. Heh.

Okay, maybe I’m exaggerating, because I don’t really need to give any opinion on everything, and it’s not always a time of great moral conflict (did that sentence make sense?). But for other things, it’s not that I don’t really and truly care…sometimes I’m just too busy to care.

It’s still not a valid excuse. Sometimes A lot of times I feel guilty for not taking a stand on the important things that are happening around us. Sometimes I don’t even take a huge stand on some faith issues. When I do make a stand, I end up trying to be “safe”, which is just the same as the non-confrontational me back then.

I’m going around and around in this post. The point is, I’m the worst person to ask for an opinion. I do have them, but I tend to keep them to myself, and sometimes I don’t bother making one because I feel like its such a bother, and it doesn’t affect me directly.

A good friend once told me that a mature Christian is one who holds a Bible in one hand and a newspaper on the other hand. Most of the times I feel like I’d rather pick up other things than the newspaper. I envy a lot of people who are solid in their opinions and convictions, and I really want to be like that. I try to make myself care, but sometimes it feels like such a lost cause that I end up just focusing on other things that require less opinions, like whether 4396710 is a type of water filter or what.

I want to change that. I want to get rid of this apathy.

And I have a feeling it will change, soon.

14/30.