You know what is the most useful thing that people make for Christmas and birthdays (and sometimes, even Valentine’s Day)? Wish lists. While I always appreciate surprises and people who know me so well that they know what to give me without having to rely on any wish list, I find that it’s always fun (and helpful) to make a wish list. Because at some point, people do consult this, and sometimes I end up getting them on my own.
Also known as: The Law of Attraction…and some thoughts
A couple of weeks ago, a colleague asked me if she could borrow an extra bookmark. Being the reader that I am, I should have a bunch of bookmarks in my bag, but that day, I didn’t have any extra. Turns out she was reading The Secret by Rhonda Byrne. I have never read that book nor even had the desire to read it, because as I told my best friend, “Isn’t The Secret a fancier way of saying you should think positive?”
Later on my colleague started telling me about how she got married, and she mentioned something about thinking about how her husband proposed to her. She told me that they weren’t really talking about it, but she was thinking about it, about getting married and all that. Sometime later, her then-boyfriend proposes. Wedding bells.
That still didn’t make me interested in reading the book since I’m not much into non-fiction or self-help books anymore. We did have a short discussion after she told me about that, though, about how we attract the things we think or declare we want. Things turned to a bit an uncomfortable road as we sort of touched on my love life (or lack of it), and then that got me thinking.
So it’s all about the Law of Attraction. If you think, or declare what you want, it will come to you. I’ve always believed in the power of declaring things and of course, praying for things, but I never really thought about that law. It wasn’t until we talked about it that I got thinking. Do I believe that as well? Maybe that’s why I don’t have the things that I want, or been waiting for, because I haven’t been thinking about it. Or, maybe because I’m expecting that I won’t get it. Maybe that’s why I didn’t get to go to Australia years ago. Maybe that’s why I couldn’t lose that last 10 lbs. And maybe, maybe that’s why I’m still single.
Truth be told, what I just wrote there sounded like…well, crap. I feel like I’m blaming not just myself but the universe for not giving me the things I want, right now. Or at least, sometime soon.
I’m not saying that it’s not true. I’m just having a hard time grasping the idea. I know I’m not the most assertive person around. I tend to take a step back and I often feel bad whenever I receive something that I feel like I don’t deserve. I work with my own set of expectations (which is really not a good thing, IMHO), and when I don’t get what I want just yet, I just think, “It’s not for me.” Or, “It’s not yet time.”
But what if I’ve inadvertently shunned away those things because I think that way? What if because I always thought I wasn’t ready or that I didn’t deserve any of those things?
But when can you say that you’re 100% ready? Isn’t that just a state of mind, and you’ll never really know when you’re ready for it until you actually take the leap?
And what do I know about deserving things? Who am I to limit myself and all that? Who am I to put a cap on the blessings that God gives to say when I’m deserving of something?
I ask too many questions, I know. And I know I am probably over thinking this entire thing. It just made me wonder if I am somehow limiting myself and what I can have and what I can give and what I can achieve by the way I think.
And, yes a part of me can’t help but wonder if maybe if I think differently about my love life, like if I didn’t think it’s such a taboo topic sometimes, then maybe…maybe I would not still be waiting. You know?
But I think a part of me is also afraid to find out that even with all that claiming, all that believing, all that attempt to attract…and I still end up with nothing.
Now that is over thinking. And kind of depressing. But still.
Really?
I think I still need a little more time to think about these things.
But didn’t God say, “Ask”?
Maybe I need to shift my thoughts a little, you know. Maybe, instead of thinking about the Law of Attraction, I could focus on something that I know is a more sure foundation. You know, like what Jesus says in Mark 11:24:
Therefore, I tell you, whatever you ask in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it shall be done for you.
Also known as: I really shouldn’t blog only about serious things
And just like that February is ending. What just happened there, people?
Okay, so I’ve been meaning to blog more often, I really do. I have a lot of blog-worthy ideas for the past few days, but whenever I’m planning to blog or whenever I’ve sat down and opened this page, I end up doing something else. Watching TV. Writing a book review. Reading another blog. Reading a book. Then before I knew it, it’s time for bed. I tell myself I’d write the next day, but that goes to the next, and the next…and you get the picture.
I’m actually quite surprised that I’m not blogging a storm here. I normally would, but with other things like books and life, it’s just harder this time.
Okay, I think I may know why I’m not blogging here as much as I ought to. And I have one word: serious.
I think I put too much pressure on myself to write something meaningful in this blog. It’s not like anyone demands it, but I just feel like I should. I’m not one who will blog about every single thing that happens in my day — who cares about that, right? But I feel like maybe I should share a little of my heart every time, make people think, make people…I don’t know, feel better about themselves. I guess I kind of expected myself to come up with entries like that, and when I know that I can’t, I just don’t write.
See, pressure. This is why it’s easier to write book reviews.
But I’m a writer! I should write!
Okay, enough pressure, I guess. No pressure. I am not supposed to be serious 100% of the time. That’s boring. There’s a time for seriousness, there’s a time for silliness. And I can do anything in my blog. Right? Right.
Allow me to start loosening up. Especially since March is coming and March has always been my most favorite month in the year. For reasons that you should know ((But if you don’t, it’s because I’m turning 25 on the 17th. Gasp!)).
So allow me to end this post with something a little…well, not exactly serious, but exciting. It’s a World Youth Day video, friends!
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I love that they seemed to show the 1995 World Youth Day in Manila a bit longer than the others. I’m in the thick of preparing my papers for WYD, which I will probably talk about some time. Let’s just say that it’s starting, and it’s going to be exciting, and I’m going to need all the prayers I can get. So if you can spare me some, please, please do. :) I’m going to see you in August, Madrid. :)
A couple of weeks ago, a colleague asked me if she could borrow an extra bookmark. Being the reader that I am, I should have a bunch of bookmarks in my bag, but that day, I didn’t have any extra. Turns out she was reading The Secret by Rhonda Byrne. I have never read that book nor even had the desire to read it, because as I told my best friend, “Isn’t The Secret a fancier way of saying you should think positive?”