Seeds of Wisdom

Also known as: The quotes and verses I put in my planner to start of my 2011 right

Oh you thought I’m done posting here? Of course note. Remember: the newer and emptier and shinier the blog, the more I post. Once this is filled with too many stuff, watch how my posting declines.

That, and I really don’t have much to do today, anyway. :P What a boring peaceful January 1, eh?

Anyway, I was planning to do a post about photos and how I changed from January to December 2010 — a total vain and pic-spammy post, but I decided to leave that for another day because I don’t have Photoshop in my Mac (sadness). So instead of forcing you guys to look at how much I changed physically in the past year and boring you to death, I am going to post something more…worthwhile.

I hope.

I like quotes. I like taking note of quotable quotes in a book, I like highlighting Bible verses and taking down lines from TV shows and movies. I lose and forget them half the time, but I have some quotes that I can never forget because it helped me remember important things in the past few years.

So, as a reminder for myself and to share them with you…well, here they are.

(Yeah, that was kind of a fail in introducing them. Sorry. ^^ )

Solomon’s Wish

I am catching up with my Bible reading for my online book club, and I finally reached 2 Chronicles today after weeks of being delayed. I remember reading that book back in college but since Chronicles was known as a collection of names, I kind of skimmed over the other parts of the book. This re-reading is helping me to see things in a different light. I started on 2 Chronicles today, and it’s basically a retelling of some of the stuff written in 2 Kings. The start of the book shared the story of Solomon and what he asked from God, and I found God’s answer to him more striking here than the one written in 2 Kings:

God answered Solomon, “This is what has come out of your heart. You didn’t grasp for money, wealth, fame and the doom of your enemies, you didn’t even ask for a long life. You asked for wisdom and knowledge so you could govern well my people over whom I’ve made you king. Because of this, you get what you asked for — wisdom and knowledge. And I am presenting you the rest as a bonus — money, wealth and fame beyond anything the kings before for after you had or will have.” (2 Chronicles 1:11-12)

I like how this puts things into perspective, how it stresses that when you have your heart in the right place, the other good things will follow.

Dreaming of happiness

I got this quote from a Lifeteen podcast last year, and I remember posting about it back when I first heard it. The Lifeteen podcast that I heard this from badly needs to be listened to again, because it has all the explanations and such. But since I can’t transcribe all of that down, I just wrote the passage in my planner to remind me of that always.

This came from Pope John Paul II and it is absolutely beautiful. Stop and read it a couple of times so you can marvel with me at the truth this sheds light on:

It is Jesus that you seek when you dream of happiness. He is waiting for you when nothing else you find satisfies you. He is the beauty to which you are so attracted; it is He who provoked you with that thirst for fullness that will not let you settle for compromise; it is He who urges you to shed the masks of a false life; it is He who reads in your heart your most genuine choices, the choices that others try to stifle.

It is Jesus who stirs in you the desire to do something great with your lives, the will to follow an ideal, the refusal to allow yourselves to be ground down by mediocrity, the courage to commit yourselves humbly and patiently to improving yourselves and society, making the world more human and more fraternal. (Pope John Paul II)

You are exactly where you should be

I first got this prayer/quote from my friend Tuesday back in college, when I was still active in my Catholic youth community. Back then, I was on my internship, and I was really struggling with it because…well, I hated it. I felt like I wasn’t made for the corporate world, and I was very lonely at work and I wasn’t getting paid and I really, really missed being in school. I guess I was having a growing up crisis then. Anyway, I was constantly chatting with Tuesday then and one day during a household, I think (if not, it was an overnight or maybe even a random chat with her), she shared this prayer to me, after her friend shared it with her. It became my prayer for 2006. It’s been a while since I last saw this one, and I thought it’s fitting to have it as a prayer again, even if it’s five years later.

That today you find peace inside you, that you can confide in your highest power because you are exactly where you are supposed to be, but do not forget the infinite possibilities that are born from the faith, that you may use the gifts that you have received and transfer the love that has been given to you, to make you feel satisfied that you are a child of God. Allow his presence in your bones and give your soul the liberty to sing, dance and be warmed by the sun, that is there for everyone and each one of us. (St. Therese of the Child Jesus)

One more time: you are exactly where you are supposed to be. How comforting is that? :)

I think there should always be conscious effort in remembering things like this that we remember at the start of every year. Conscious effort. It won’t be easy for the next 364 days, but by God’s grace, it is doable. Right?

There are infinite possibilities in 2011 friends. Let’s help one another remember that. :)

Welcoming the new year

Also known as: How 2010 was and my 2011 goals

Like I said in one tweet, the time I blog the most is whenever I have a new blog, or when I have a new layout. There’s something so exciting about writing whenever there is something new, especially if it’s so new that it’s practically empty. Or shiny. Or both. :)

But it’s even more fun to blog because it’s the New Year. The turn of the year is always the most exciting part of the year other than my birthday or Christmas or Easter. New year means a blank slate, a time when everything seems plausible, and there are an infinite number of possibilities waiting for us to be discovered. And claimed.

And because I’m a sucker for all the New Year hullaballoo, this post is a dedicated to that. :P

Image from weheartit.com

2010 was…a strange year. Strange, not because many odd things happened, but because it seemed pretty quiet compared to the past few years. I used to set a theme for every year. 2006 was a different year, 2007 was a difficult year, 2008 was the year of the extraordinary, 2009 was the year of the unexpected. 2010 was a year that I just wanted to come because 2009 (especially the last few months of it) felt like it was a bad and neverending nightmare. I just wanted to get to 2010 just so I can say that 2009 was over.

I wasn’t expecting 2010 to blow me away, and now that I think about it…it didn’t. There were so many good things that happened last year, though, and I am honestly very thankful about that. It’s so quiet that the end of the year kind of took me by surprise and it took me a while to accept that it’s ending already. Right now I’m still trying to recall the stuff that happened, the smaller ones that I should remember, but they’re fuzzy. There wasn’t even too many monumental things, but I do remember the people, and some of the events and the happiness that comes with being with them.

How to describe 2010 still kind of evades me, but I’m happy it happened. It was almost like God was giving me a chance to rest after a tumultuous 2009. And maybe it is His way of letting me recharge, you know. Of letting me recover from the challenges of the previous year. And I’m pretty sure it’s his way of preparing me for the year ahead.

In the past years, I’ve always made new year’s resolutions. I like writing down goals, I like challenging myself to do new stuff or more stuff (or both). However, I realized that I barely accomplish half of those goals, and this non-accomplishment just ends up frustrating me. I guess that’s what being young does to you: you set out to do so many things that you spread yourself out too thinly and only end up doing a few things and not all. That is also how we set ourselves up for disappointment, don’t you think?

Oh so emo on the first day of the year.

I’m pretty sure I only accomplished half (or less) on my 2010 goals. And I honestly do not want to beat myself up with it. Past is past, you know. Move on. No use crying over spilled milk. [insert another cliche here]

As 2010 came to a close, I wasn’t really thinking of things I need to accomplish the next year. In fact, the only thing I was thinking of as midnight came were things that I need to start doing if only because I can’t stand not doing them anymore. So instead of writing a loooong list of goals that I know I won’t be able to accomplish anyway, I will just focus on a few things that I need and want to do this year. And they are:

  • Drive on my own. I’ve had this in my resolution for the looooongest time, almost like the lose weight resolution. I’ve managed to lose a lot of weight successfully, and since that proved to be doable, driving on my own should, too. After all the hassle of commuting I experienced last year, I need to learn how to drive. Especially now that my brother is married and is not around to fetch me anytime I need him. I must drive. I MUST DRIVE.
  • Go to Spain for World Youth Day. I missed World Youth Day Sydney in 2008 (quite miserably, if I may add), and I was pretty heartbroken about it. I was pretty sad about it. Late 2010, I was asked if I want to attend the WYD at Madrid and I jumped at the chance. I still have a lot of papers to fix and my bank accounts need to get ready, but I do want to go to Madrid and finally experience a World Youth Day. So, by God’s grace, I will go to Spain on World Youth Day in August 2011.

And those are the only two things I can think of. It may seem easy for others, but for me, this is already quite…daunting. Having fewer resolutions means it’s less excuse to not accomplish them, you know?

Oh, but I have other side projects in mind, but let’s not put them in the goals list. For now, those two are the BIG, FUN AND SCARY THINGS TO DO IN 2011. Big, fun and scary, all right.

Early today, as I was doing some reflecting, I felt that someone was telling me, “It’s time to grow up, Tina.” And maybe it is. I am turning 25 this year, and…well, maybe it is time to start focusing on some grown up stuff that I’ve refused to acknowledge in the past years since I turned 21. What are those things? I have yet to figure out.

And now I think I’ve rambled enough. That is one thing I don’t think I can get rid of this year. Sorry everyone, you’re stuck with me (as long as you keep reading my blog, anyway). :P

Happy new year everyone. :)

So let’s try this again, shall we?

Hello and welcome to tinamats.com!

I know I started a reboot early this last (oops, still writing with 2010 in reference :P) year, but I didn’t get to update it as much as I thought I would, so I removed those and pretended they didn’t exist. I put up a sorta fancy (or not) under construction page (who uses that still?) and then forgot about it again until after Christmas, when I realized that I need to move to this domain by 2011, and no later than that? So here it is. Still slightly rough around the edges but it’s alive.

I know this post is meant to be on January 1, 2011, but I didn’t want a totally blank blog on the first day of the year, and let’s face it — I know I would not be able to blog that day no matter how much I want to. I would probably be panicking that day because I can’t make the old website work. Or maybe not. But it’s just better to have something here than the completely blank blog, right?

So, hello an welcome to tinamats.com! :) Tinamats.com is basically the new Refine Me. I loved and owned that domain since 2003, and it will always be a part of me, but now, I have to face the fact that I have to move on from that domain and get something more…me. Hence the domain name. Hence the move. And I need to put all my blogs under one domain already, so I moved everything here.

But where is Refine Me, you ask? Clicky. I had a lot of trouble with the 301 redirects and all, so typing refineme.org will not lead you here but there. What I wanted was too complicated to really explain, but I ended up with a decision: I wanted to start fresh, and that means really letting go of my old domain name. At least, after two years.

If you’re new here, hello. :) If you’re not, welcome back. If you’ve subscribed to my feed, I hope this shows up in yours…if not…well, I’ll have to start from scratch then.*shrug*

2011 is the year when all things are new. Not all literally of course, most are figurative. :) New stuff are always exciting. And tinamats.com is new stuff, ergo, it is also exciting.

Hah. I don’t know if that made sense. But anyway. Welcome! :) And happy new year! :)

P.S. You know what else is exciting? Binary dates. Like, 1/1/11. Or it can also be 01/01/11. This post is published at 1:11 too! :P And that is me being a #geek . :-B