Serious

Also known as: I really shouldn’t blog only about serious things

And just like that February is ending. What just happened there, people?

Okay, so I’ve been meaning to blog more often, I really do. I have a lot of blog-worthy ideas for the past few days, but whenever I’m planning to blog or whenever I’ve sat down and opened this page, I end up doing something else. Watching TV. Writing a book review. Reading another blog. Reading a book. Then before I knew it, it’s time for bed. I tell myself I’d write the next day, but that goes to the next, and the next…and you get the picture.

I’m actually quite surprised that I’m not blogging a storm here. I normally would, but with other things like books and life, it’s just harder this time.

Okay, I think I may know why I’m not blogging here as much as I ought to. And I have one word: serious.

I think I put too much pressure on myself to write something meaningful in this blog. It’s not like anyone demands it, but I just feel like I should. I’m not one who will blog about every single thing that happens in my day — who cares about that, right? But I feel like maybe I should share a little of my heart every time, make people think, make people…I don’t know, feel better about themselves. I guess I kind of expected myself to come up with entries like that, and when I know that I can’t, I just don’t write.

See, pressure. This is why it’s easier to write book reviews.

But I’m a writer! I should write!

Okay, enough pressure, I guess. No pressure. I am not supposed to be serious 100% of the time. That’s boring. There’s a time for seriousness, there’s a time for silliness. And I can do anything in my blog. Right? Right.

Allow me to start loosening up. Especially since March is coming and March has always been my most favorite month in the year. For reasons that you should know1.

So allow me to end this post with something a little…well, not exactly serious, but exciting. It’s a World Youth Day video, friends!

I love that they seemed to show the 1995 World Youth Day in Manila a bit longer than the others. I’m in the thick of preparing my papers for WYD, which I will probably talk about some time. Let’s just say that it’s starting, and it’s going to be exciting, and I’m going to need all the prayers I can get. So if you can spare me some, please, please do. :) I’m going to see you in August, Madrid. :)

Happy March in a few hours. :)

  1. But if you don’t, it’s because I’m turning 25 on the 17th. Gasp! []

31 Days

Also known as: The end of January, goal updates, and some time woes

Just like that, January is ending. Excuse me for being cliche once again, but where did this month go?

There’s something about this year that makes me want to slow it down. Maybe it’s because of that twenty-five thing. Maybe it’s because I don’t want this lovely cold weather to end yet. Maybe it’s because I feel like time really just passes by too fast and everything is passing me by. Maybe I’m just feeling all of this now because I have a monthly visitor and that has always made me feel a bit more emotional than the usual (see how easy it is to blame the hormones?).

But anyway. January is ending. There is exactly 11 months left in 2011. How is that possible?

Forgive me for being so overwhelmed by the turn of the month. I’ve been through 25 January endings in my entire life, but somehow this one just strikes me a bit more. I guess that’s what happens when you think about things too much. I don’t know if that’s good or bad.

So the usual question with this should be: how are your resolutions, so far? Well, since I didn’t really make resolutions this year save for two goals, it should be easy to answer. I don’t know if I’d like the answers…but what the heck.

Goal # 1: Driving

I can’t count how many times I wished I had my own car in the past month. It’s an itch, strange to say. I really have this feeling that I will only really have the confidence to drive if I had my own car. It’s like how I lost weight, you see: I tried exercise videos, leading cutting stack programs, dieting on my own, and all that, but I only really shed the extra pounds when I signed up for the gym. It’s not only about the entire gym atmosphere really, but the fact that I knew gym fees (including trainer and nutritionist fees) were being charged in my card, so I felt that I had to make the most out of it. It worked. I figured the same principle would apply with driving.

This is why I want a car.

It’s a huge investment, though. I know I can’t afford it anytime soon (especially because of Goal # 2). But man. I could count the number of times I wished so bad I had a car — then wished I knew how to drive well.

Of course, owning a car now is not really a wise thing in the Philippines, with the rising gas prices and car-related crimes and all. But I wouldn’t mind owning this pretty little thing:

Honda Jazz. ♥

I also have a feeling I’m just being a tad materialistic there.

Goal # 2: WYD in Madrid, Spain

It is a bit too early to start preparing the papers, but I have started planning my trip dates! I ran into a bit of conflict in the first dates I planned because of work (which reminds me I should write some thoughts about that), I think I have finally settled on dates that is perfectly acceptable to me. The next steps now are to collect requirements so I can start fixing the papers.

Speaking of Spain, My best friend and I were talking about trips and stuff, and a bit of quarter-life crisis (more to that on another post), and I told him that I can’t not go to this trip. I don’t know why, but I feel like this is something that I should do for myself this year, whatever other people say. I feel like I owe this to myself, at least for the part of me that yearns to do something other than what I do.

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I think the saddest thing about January ending is how the start of the year feels over. It’s February, you can’t say the year just started. The freshness is starting to fade. And there’s a sad feeling knowing that it would take 11 more months before we get to really feel that freshness again.

Then again, that is subjective. Every day is a new day, ergo, every day should have the same kind of freshness that January 1 had. It should. It’s not easy, but we all need new days. And we are given that everyday. How beautiful is that?

In less than an hour, January is going to end. I’m kind of sad that it is ending…but I am looking forward to what the February has to offer. And March. And April. And May. And…you get what I mean.

This entry felt a bit all over the place than what I originally intended. Apologies. I will try to blog more often here than I did in the next month. :)