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Cryptic Entry # 1: Changes

And change rears its (ugly?) head once again.

I don’t know why hearing the news made me feel so sad when it shouldn’t. At all. Because it’s not to be sad about. I should have expected this to happen eventually. In fact, it’s a totally new opportunity that I should have enough senses to grab eagerly. So why do I feel…well, not so excited about it?

:-<

Maybe it’s because I feel like someone’s pulling the rug under my feet just as when I was getting used to standing there. Maybe because I’m afraid. Or something. Maybe because I feel like being thrown into an entirely new environment again, even if that’s not really the case.

It just feels too soon, you know? Way too soon. Although it’s not like I can do anything else about it. And it’s not like I’m going to go somewhere far, far away too.

Deal, Tina. Deal. God will take care of you.

If you are going through a time of discouragement, there is a time of great personal growth. (Oswald Chambers)

Toned down and cracked

I try to believe…that God doesn’t give your more than one little piece of the story at once. You know, the story of your life. Otherwise your heart would crack wider than you could handle. He only cracks it enough so you can still walk, like someone wearing a cast. But you’ve still got a crack running up your side, big enough for a sapling to grow out of. Only no one sees it. Nobody sees it. Everybody thinks you’re one whole piece, and so they treat you maybe not so gentle as they would if they could see that crack.
– Vivi Walker (Divine Secrets of the Ya-Ya Sisterhood by Rebecca Wells)

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Today has certainly been one of my favorite days since I started working. :) I think it’s because of the entire “dress down” atmosphere today at the office; everyone just feels so “loose” and young and so college-like. :)

Today was also chicken day. Reg, Anne, Jane and I ate one whole chicken from the grocery. After waiting for thirty minutes, we ate and then talked about dogs and Philippine showbiz. :P Then we went back upstairs to resume work and around 2:00pm, the electricity went out, so we spent some time talking and waiting for the computers to go back on. The generators went back on, so we resumed work and then it went off again when electricity went on. I got trapped in the CR again (ProxCard, when will I get youuuuu?), and on the way up from the 28th floor, Sir Armand was there from a yosi break and then it was time to tag along for another meeting. The meeting had me laughing because of all the side comments and then I got to be formally introduced to Ms. Rox and Ms. Aileen, and now I’m formally known as the “colleague”. :p

Then it was time to go meet my parents for my brother’s birthday celebration so I said goodbye to everyone who are all heading to the opening of the Sportsfest for the company. I met my parents and on the way to SM Megamall, my boss sent me a message: By the way, good job on the competitor reports. We were commended by Ling.Ü Talk about happiness.

Then it’s eat-all-you-can-buffet at Saisaki for my brother’s birthday. He got to read the birthday greeting thanks to my dad’s WiFi laptop. We spent half the time laughing at each other and how embarrassed he is when some people sang songs to him as a greeting. :P

All in all…today is a good day. :) Plus it’s FRIDAY so that makes everything even better. :) Yeahbah.

So before I go to bed and go to dreamland, here’s a quote I got from one of the blogs I visited today. Perfect for today. :)

Stop for a second, breathe a quick prayer, and ask God to interrupt your plans, agendas, schedules, and to-do lists sometime this month to simply thrill you. As audacious as that sounds, it is not a daring request. You don’t really think that if you asked your Father in heaven to throw you a surprise party that He would give you a “White Elephant” exchange instead, do you? Can you dare to believe that God will get an even bigger kick out of delighting you than you will by being the recipient of His lavish love? God is bigger and sweeter and funner and wealthier and huge-r than you could ever imagine. But try anyway. Then ask boldly with expectation of His extravagant grace. (Lisa Whelchel)

Good night world! Have a great weekend! :)

Thursday Thirteen # 6: The Word

I will be attending a Bible Study later at the office with (Ate) Jane during lunch time, and I am excited about it! I didn’t know there was something like that here. So in relation to that, this week’s Thursday Thirteen is thirteen of my favorite Bible verses. :)

Thursday Thirteen # 4: Cartoons
Thirteen Favorite Bible Verses:

  1. “I can do all things in Christ who strengthens me.” (Philippians 4:13 NKJV)
    This verse was my anchor verse back in high school, especially when I was always faced with stress from schoolwork. I was an overachiever back then, and I always seem to carry big amounts of schoolwork and even if it doesn’t show back then, I get really worn out in the middle of it. This verse reminds me that Christ will always give me strength for whatever I have to do. I particularly like The Message’s translation of this verse: “Whatever I have, wherever I am, I can make it through anything in the One who makes me who I am.” :)
  2. “We bring nothing at birth, we take nothing with us at death. The Lord alone gives and takes. Praise the name of the Lord!” (Job 1:21 CEV)
    I’ve always admired the story of how Job was faithful to God even in the midst of all his troubles. This particular verse reminds me that everything I have is from God and none is mine. It reminds me to praise God whatever my circumstance is. :)
  3. “I know what I’m doing. I have it all planned out—plans to take care of you, not abandon you, plans to give you the future you hope for.” (Jeremiah 29:11 MSG)
    This verse used to be my banner verse for my love life. I can safely say I’ve grown up from that already, but still, this verse brings me hope, especially when I was kind of down on job hunting and post graduation woes. When things are just too blurry for me to see, it’s comforting to know that God has a plan that is for my good.
  4. “I paid a huge price for you: all of Egypt, with rich Cush and Seba thrown in! That’s how much you mean to me! That’s how much I love you! I’d sell off the whole world to get you back, trade the creation just for you.” (Isaiah 43:4 MSG)
    ♥ ♥ ♥ :)
  5. “Trust God from the bottom of your heart; don’t try to figure out everything on your own. Listen for God’s voice in everything you do, everywhere you go; he’s the one who will keep you on track.” (Proverbs 3:5 MSG)
    This is for control freaks like me. :) I know that trusting God fully is one of the hard things to do in life, and this verse is a reminder of what I must always do.
  6. “I shall keep silent and not open my mouth, for this is Your work.” (Psalm 39:10 Christian Community Bible)
    My mouth has gotten me in trouble for a lot of times. :P I was kind of sad about something and I badly needed enlightenment one night, so I was browsing through Psalms and I got this verse which just hit the bullseye. :D
  7. “God will fight the battle for you. And you? You keep your mouths shut!” (Exodus 14:14 MSG)
    I love this translation of this verse, and it’s related to verse # 6. :)
  8. “And we know that God causes all things to work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose.” (Romans 8:28 NAB)
    Sometimes when I get in the middle of something that I don’t understand or is difficult, I ask God why is it like that. And God simply answers me with this. I read somewhere that God reveals His will to us in bite-size pieces so we won’t be overwhelmed with how big His plan for us is. This verse also reminds me that whether it is good or bad, it will always work out for God’s purpose, which is one thing I know I can trust with my life. :)
  9. “I want you to live as free of complications as possible. When you’re unmarried, you’re free to concentrate on simply pleasing the Master. Marriage involves you in all the nuts and bolts of domestic life and in wanting to please your spouse, leading to so many more demands on your attention. The time and energy that married people spend on caring for and nurturing each other, the unmarried can spend in becoming whole and holy instruments of God. I’m trying to be helpful and make it as easy as possible for you, not make things harder. All I want is for you to be able to develop a way of life in which you can spend plenty of time together with the Master without a lot of distractions.” (1 Corinthians 7:32-35 MSG)
    Haha, enough said. :) This is a reminder for singletons like me who get lonely once in a while. :P
  10. “Let us not become weary in doing good for at proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up.” (Galatians 6:9 NIV)
    There are times in my walk with God that I get tired of doing what I am doing and I wonder if all this YFC/SFC service and doing good is all worth it. We all get to that point (I believe it’s called burnout :p), and this verse saved me just in time from having another one of those.
  11. “Here’s what I want: Give me a God-listening heart…” (1 Kings 3:9 MSG)
    Simple, straightforward and something I pray for as well.
  12. “…and after you have suffered a little he will bring you to perfection…” (1 Peter 5:10 Christian Community Bible)
    The Thesis Verse! This verse has brought me through the hard times we all call thesis. :) Through all those consultations that made me squirm and those delayed defenses…this just got me through all the emotional and spiritual strain that thesis gave me. :)
  13. “Incline my heart to follow Your will and not my own selfish desire.” (Psalm 119:36)
    My anchor verse for almost four years now. :D As my friend told me once, there’s nothing worth praying for than God’s will in your life. :)

* The Bibles I have available with me are the Christian Community Bible and The Message Bible. Much thanks to Bible Gateway for other translations. :)

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More Than Useless (Relient K)

Now this isn’t a review. I was listening to my trusty iPod and More Than Useless by Relient K played. I have to say that I love their album Mmhmm, but it’s been a while since I listened to any song in this album. I was refreshed with the familiar sound, and then I decided to look for the lyrics.

Well what do you know. I found a new theme song! :)

MORE THAN USELESS
Relient K
MMHMM

I feel like, I would like
To be somewhere else doing something that matters
And I’ll admit here, while I sit here
My mind wastes away and my doubts start to gather
Whats the purpose? It feels worthless
So unwanted like I’ve lost all my value
I can’t find it, not in the least bit
and I’m just scared, so scared that I’ll fail you

And sometimes I think that I’m not any good at all
And sometimes I wonder why, why I’m even here at all
But then you assure me

I’m a little more than useless
And when I think that I can’t do this
You promise me that I’ll get through this
And do something right
Do something right for once

So I say if I can’t, do something significant
I’ll opt to leave most opportunities wasted
And nothing trivial, that life could give me will
Measure up to what might have replaced it
Too late look, my date book
Is packed full of days that were empty and now gone
And I bet, that regret
Will prove to get me to improve in the long run

I notice, I know this
Week is a symbol of how I use my time
Resent it, I spent it
Convincing myself the world’s doing just fine
Without me
Doing anything of any consequence
Without me
Showing any sign of ever making sense
Of my time , it’s my life
And my right, to use it like I should
Like he would, for the good
Of everything that I would ever know

I’m a little more than useless
When I think that I can’t do this
You promise me that I’ll get through this
And do something right
Do something right for once

I want to highlight the parts that struck me the most but I think I’m going to end up highlighting the whole song if I do!

To those who are feeling useless, wanting to be somewhere else than where you are right now…cheer up! You’re not useless, just as I am not. :) We’re all where we are for a purpose, and never get tired in believing in that. :)

Thank You Lord for speaking to me through this song. Have a great day everyone! ♥

From Mere Christianity

I’ve been meaning to read Mere Christianity by C.S. Lewis for the longest time now but I’ve just read the first two chapters and stopped. I was feeling kind of low for the past days and I decided to pick this up and read a random chapter. Here’s what I read:

We may, indeed, be sure that perfect chastity — like perfect charity — will not be attained by any merely human efforts. You can ask for God’s help. Even when you have done so, it may seem to you for a long time that no help, or less help than you need is being given. Never mind. After each failure, ask forgiveness, pick yourself up, and try again. Very often what God first helps us towards is not the virtue itself but just this power of always trying again. For however important chastity (or courage, or truthfulness, or any other virtue) may be, this process trains us in habits of the soul which are more important still. It cures our illusions about ourselves and teaches us to depend on God. We learn, on one hand, that we cannot trust ourselves even in our best moments, and, on the other, we need not despair even in our worst for our failures are forgiven. The only fatal thing is to sit down content with anything less than perfection.
Mere Christianity, C.S. Lewis, p. 101-102 (emphasis mine)

Forgive me, Father, for relying too much on myself. I’m sorry for breaking your heart too many times. I’ve said this so many times but I still go back to where I started. I’m sorry dear Lord for taking back so many junk in my life. Please forgive me, and help me believe that You have made me clean. I ask for the strength to run away from temptation and not leave a forwarding address, and for the strength to stand up again when I have fallen. Help me to depend on nothing but You, not on my own strength but only in You. I want to love You better than this, Lord.

Junk

Before I started staying at a dorm near school back in third year college, I used to clean my room three times a year: one every after term. I know most people hate cleaning their rooms, and while I don’t particularly love it, I do it because it’s either I do it or my mom does it. I don’t like that because when that happens I can’t find anything in my room, plus there are a lot of things inside my room (i.e. my journal, among other things) that are a bit too personal for other people’s consumption. So I take the time every term to clean my room — who wants to sleep in a mess anyway?

And as with every cleaning binge, I find myself faced with so many things after cleaning: junk. All kinds of junk — from old test papers to notes to empty bottles of perfume to old worn out scrunchies to old and empty pens to almost anything that can accumulate in a span of three to four months. Some of them end up under my bed, behind my desk, inside my drawers and sometimes even behind my shoes. It’s funny and frustrating how so much junk could get stored up in such a short amount of time; to think I’m almost always out in school most of the time and the most time I spend in my room is when I sleep.

If that much junk could get inside a room for a span of three months, think of how many junk we get to accumulate in our lives in a span of…say, one day? I know that’s not long — in fact, comparing that to eternity, a day is probably just a grain of sand. But do you know how much junk we can store in our souls in a day? Do you have any idea?

I’d like to think of every day as a blank slate; a day where I can start over again and sort of forget my mistakes the day before. But sometimes, halfway during the day, I feel tired and frustrated about all the wrong things I have been doing or have been happening. Like, say, today, I didn’t get to go to school again because of the rain — that’s frustrating. Or say your sibling said something that annoyed you all of a sudden and you ended up fighting with him/her. A shouting match — and it’s only 10:00 am. What a day it must be huh? Or what about going through a day where you think you were actually good — and then falling into sin at night because your eyes landed on some magazine or you happen to chance upon a TV channel that is showing some “steamy” scenes?

Junk. Our lives are full of junk. Some big, some small, but junk nonetheless. You might say that you have a cleaner life than I do and I might insist that I am far more junk-free than that guy over there, but in the end, it’s still what it is: junk. If cleaning my room from junk every four months is frustrating, try cleaning out your life every day from junk. That would be even more frustrating. It’s hard enough deciding if a thing should be thrown away or not, why do I have to go through it every day?

Let me end this post with two quotes to think about.

“And remember this…the junk in your life and the junk in [his] life aren’t really all that different when you compare them to the holiness of the One who forgives them both. They’re both just pretty much junk.”
– Jake Phillips to his daughter Savannah, Savannah by the Sea, p. 256

“I love you the way you are, but I refuse to leave you that way.” (God)
– Kuya Philip, Talk 4, SFC CLP, May 20, 2006

Have a blessed rainy day everyone. :) Keep safe. :)

Calling in sick

I think I’m going to miss the first day of Job Expo at school tomorrow. I’m still kind of sick — and now I’m slightly heaving from the asthma. My nose is still clogged and I’m feeling kind of weak. Darn colds. Oh well. Let’s see tonight if I’m well enough to go tomorrow.

Last night was the second to last SFC-CLP (for those who don’t know, it means Singles for Christ Christian Life Program. It’s the entry point to SFC) and in my opinion, it was a pretty good wrap up. :) And instead of a discussion group, we had an open forum, and one thing struck me last night: to be able to move on to SFC, one must really embrace the SFC culture. I have to admit, I was a bit hesitant to be chummy with all of them because I feel like I’m too serious and all that. If not too serious, too young. But then again, I knew that God placed me there for a reason and that it’s His will for me to be there at the particular SFC chapter. Anyway, last night I felt once again that I will be able to move on and fit in with these people. I can’t wait to have a household (FYI: household is the term we use in the community for cell groups. Mighty fun :p).

Earlier today, on our way home from the mass, I got to see someone I haven’t seen for the longest time: Ate Tinapie! :) She’s one of my triplet. See, during my YFC-High School Based days, there were three of us in the sector: me, Ate Tinapie and Ate Tynna. Three Tina/Tynna’s. :) That’s why I became Tinamats because to avoid confusion. Anyway, I haven’t seen her for the longest time, and she got married last January — and now she’s pregnant! I can’t believe how time flies. :D She’s going back to Timor Leste next week though, because that’s her mission area with Kuya Anthony, her husband. But it was so good to see her again! :)

Anyway, seeing her reminded me of all those fun High School Based moments. :D

I finished reading Savannah from Savannah and Savannah by the Sea by Denise Hildreth and I’ll get to the reviews in the next few days. I read too fast. But then again, I have nothing to do anyway. I still have one unread book — Blink by Ted Dekker. Next time, Ted. I’ll read you next time.

I need to go finish my ginger tea and pray now, but I shall leave you with a quote from Savannah by the Sea:

“That’s what the right person does. But they don’t create it. Only the Creator can create…You’ve got to deal with your heart. Because until you can be trusted with your own heart, you can’t be trusted with someone else’s.”
– Savannah Philips, to her best friend Paige Long, p.300