Cryptic Entry # 2: Why?

Hello, Lord. You seem so silent, yet You speak so much.

But what are You saying now?

My [daughter], when you come to serve the Lord, prepare yourself for trials. Be sincere of heart and steadfast, undisturbed in time of adversity. Cling to Him, forsake Him not; thus your future will be great. Accept whatever befalls you, in crushing misfortune be patient; for in fire gold is tested, and worthy men in crucible of humiliation. Trust God and He will help you; make straight your ways and hope in Him…study the generations long past and understand, has anyone hoped in the Lord and been disappointed?
– Sirach 2:1-11 (February 21, 2007)

I did the first thing You want me to do…and got a result that I didn’t really like. But I choose to trust You. Now what do You want?

If our hopes seem to be experiencing disappointment righht now, it simply means that they are being purified. Every hope or dream of the human mind will be fulfilled if it is noble and it is of God. But one of the greatest stresses of life is the stress of waiting for God. He brings fulfillment, ‘because you have kept my commandment to persevere.’ (Revelation 3:10)
– Oswald Chambers, My Utmost for His Highest (February 22, 2007)

Why me? Why not me? Why am I here? Why am I not here? Why am I doing this? Why am I not doing this?

I wait because it’s the only thing I could do. I’m still waiting. How long must I wait, Lord?

Let God send you through His storm and don’t go until He does. If you select your own spot to be planted, you will prove yourself to be an unproductive, empty pod. However, if you allow God to plant you, you will “bear much fruit.” (John 15:8)
Oswald Chambers, My Utmost for His Highest (March 11, 2007)

Why does this have to mean so many things? Why can’t it mean only one thing so I won’t have to wonder if I did the right thing or not?

Why is it so hard to wait? Why is it so hard to believe?

Am I too wise to recognize that everything uncertain is certainly a possibility? Help me believe because I don’t want to miss any miracle…Could You, would You show Yourself to me…?