I found all that I want, all that I longed for in You
I found all that I want, all that I longed for in You
Wasted time, is when I’m far from Your truth
I’ve found all that I want, all that I long for in You.
– Spirit, Switchfoot

Hi Lord. It’s me, Tina.

It’s been a long time since I wrote to You, and the last time I actually took the time to write on my journal was…too long ago. I remember the days where the first thing I do when I open my eyes was grab my Bible and read Your word. How long has it been? I can’t remember. Now that’s bad. I’m sorry.

Anyway, today is the day I promised myself that I would finally let go of the entire Switchfoot experience. I know no one’s stopping me from revelling in the entire thing, and I could just reminisce and talk about the entire thing all day but I want to. That doesn’t mean I’m not thankful for it — You know I am. I really, really am, and I could never ever thank You enough for blessing me with this experience: to meet a really amazing and humble group of guys who inspire me and live Your word through their music. It’s okay if I have no “proper” picture with the other band members; the experience itself is enough. I know You know that’s one of my dreams, and I thank You for bringing it to reality.

But really, I have to stop gushing about it already. Because I feel like if I keep on doing it, I’m going to lose focus on the One that matters…and it’s You. I mean, their songs wouldn’t mean much if I lose focus on the One they’re singing to, right?

So today, Lord, I shall let go. I’m happy and thankful for the experience, but now it’s time to stop thinking of what-if’s and what-might-have-been’s on their two day stay and go back to You. I thank You for blessing me with this wonderful experience and I know that I am a different person because of this, but ultimately, all of this, everything is all about You. You and You alone, Father. This is for Your glory; not the band, not ours, but Yours.

Father I also pray that may this experience bring not only me, but other people closer to You. Father, I know You know what the state of my heart is right now and I know it’s not really something I’m proud of right now, but I also know You love me anyway…and that’s enough for me. :) Thank You for this love, and I pray that other people may feel this too. :)

I pray Lord for this day; may I be an instrument of Your love to other people who need it. May the people I love and care for feel this love as well, and may You always keep them safe. Father I pray for the work we all have to face today, may we be good stewards of your gifts and blessings. Keep all of us away from evil that we may not cause pain — to others, to ourselves and most importantly, to You.

And once again, Thank You. Because without You, I wouldn’t even be here typing this prayer at all. :)

I love You! ♥