Welcoming the new year

Also known as: How 2010 was and my 2011 goals

Like I said in one tweet, the time I blog the most is whenever I have a new blog, or when I have a new layout. There’s something so exciting about writing whenever there is something new, especially if it’s so new that it’s practically empty. Or shiny. Or both. :)

But it’s even more fun to blog because it’s the New Year. The turn of the year is always the most exciting part of the year other than my birthday or Christmas or Easter. New year means a blank slate, a time when everything seems plausible, and there are an infinite number of possibilities waiting for us to be discovered. And claimed.

And because I’m a sucker for all the New Year hullaballoo, this post is a dedicated to that. :P

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2010 was…a strange year. Strange, not because many odd things happened, but because it seemed pretty quiet compared to the past few years. I used to set a theme for every year. 2006 was a different year, 2007 was a difficult year, 2008 was the year of the extraordinary, 2009 was the year of the unexpected. 2010 was a year that I just wanted to come because 2009 (especially the last few months of it) felt like it was a bad and neverending nightmare. I just wanted to get to 2010 just so I can say that 2009 was over.

I wasn’t expecting 2010 to blow me away, and now that I think about it…it didn’t. There were so many good things that happened last year, though, and I am honestly very thankful about that. It’s so quiet that the end of the year kind of took me by surprise and it took me a while to accept that it’s ending already. Right now I’m still trying to recall the stuff that happened, the smaller ones that I should remember, but they’re fuzzy. There wasn’t even too many monumental things, but I do remember the people, and some of the events and the happiness that comes with being with them.

How to describe 2010 still kind of evades me, but I’m happy it happened. It was almost like God was giving me a chance to rest after a tumultuous 2009. And maybe it is His way of letting me recharge, you know. Of letting me recover from the challenges of the previous year. And I’m pretty sure it’s his way of preparing me for the year ahead.

In the past years, I’ve always made new year’s resolutions. I like writing down goals, I like challenging myself to do new stuff or more stuff (or both). However, I realized that I barely accomplish half of those goals, and this non-accomplishment just ends up frustrating me. I guess that’s what being young does to you: you set out to do so many things that you spread yourself out too thinly and only end up doing a few things and not all. That is also how we set ourselves up for disappointment, don’t you think?

Oh so emo on the first day of the year.

I’m pretty sure I only accomplished half (or less) on my 2010 goals. And I honestly do not want to beat myself up with it. Past is past, you know. Move on. No use crying over spilled milk. [insert another cliche here]

As 2010 came to a close, I wasn’t really thinking of things I need to accomplish the next year. In fact, the only thing I was thinking of as midnight came were things that I need to start doing if only because I can’t stand not doing them anymore. So instead of writing a loooong list of goals that I know I won’t be able to accomplish anyway, I will just focus on a few things that I need and want to do this year. And they are:

  • Drive on my own. I’ve had this in my resolution for the looooongest time, almost like the lose weight resolution. I’ve managed to lose a lot of weight successfully, and since that proved to be doable, driving on my own should, too. After all the hassle of commuting I experienced last year, I need to learn how to drive. Especially now that my brother is married and is not around to fetch me anytime I need him. I must drive. I MUST DRIVE.
  • Go to Spain for World Youth Day. I missed World Youth Day Sydney in 2008 (quite miserably, if I may add), and I was pretty heartbroken about it. I was pretty sad about it. Late 2010, I was asked if I want to attend the WYD at Madrid and I jumped at the chance. I still have a lot of papers to fix and my bank accounts need to get ready, but I do want to go to Madrid and finally experience a World Youth Day. So, by God’s grace, I will go to Spain on World Youth Day in August 2011.

And those are the only two things I can think of. It may seem easy for others, but for me, this is already quite…daunting. Having fewer resolutions means it’s less excuse to not accomplish them, you know?

Oh, but I have other side projects in mind, but let’s not put them in the goals list. For now, those two are the BIG, FUN AND SCARY THINGS TO DO IN 2011. Big, fun and scary, all right.

Early today, as I was doing some reflecting, I felt that someone was telling me, “It’s time to grow up, Tina.” And maybe it is. I am turning 25 this year, and…well, maybe it is time to start focusing on some grown up stuff that I’ve refused to acknowledge in the past years since I turned 21. What are those things? I have yet to figure out.

And now I think I’ve rambled enough. That is one thing I don’t think I can get rid of this year. Sorry everyone, you’re stuck with me (as long as you keep reading my blog, anyway). :P

Happy new year everyone. :)

So let’s try this again, shall we?

Hello and welcome to tinamats.com!

I know I started a reboot early this last (oops, still writing with 2010 in reference :P) year, but I didn’t get to update it as much as I thought I would, so I removed those and pretended they didn’t exist. I put up a sorta fancy (or not) under construction page (who uses that still?) and then forgot about it again until after Christmas, when I realized that I need to move to this domain by 2011, and no later than that? So here it is. Still slightly rough around the edges but it’s alive.

I know this post is meant to be on January 1, 2011, but I didn’t want a totally blank blog on the first day of the year, and let’s face it — I know I would not be able to blog that day no matter how much I want to. I would probably be panicking that day because I can’t make the old website work. Or maybe not. But it’s just better to have something here than the completely blank blog, right?

So, hello an welcome to tinamats.com! :) Tinamats.com is basically the new Refine Me. I loved and owned that domain since 2003, and it will always be a part of me, but now, I have to face the fact that I have to move on from that domain and get something more…me. Hence the domain name. Hence the move. And I need to put all my blogs under one domain already, so I moved everything here.

But where is Refine Me, you ask? Clicky. I had a lot of trouble with the 301 redirects and all, so typing refineme.org will not lead you here but there. What I wanted was too complicated to really explain, but I ended up with a decision: I wanted to start fresh, and that means really letting go of my old domain name. At least, after two years.

If you’re new here, hello. :) If you’re not, welcome back. If you’ve subscribed to my feed, I hope this shows up in yours…if not…well, I’ll have to start from scratch then.*shrug*

2011 is the year when all things are new. Not all literally of course, most are figurative. :) New stuff are always exciting. And tinamats.com is new stuff, ergo, it is also exciting.

Hah. I don’t know if that made sense. But anyway. Welcome! :) And happy new year! :)

P.S. You know what else is exciting? Binary dates. Like, 1/1/11. Or it can also be 01/01/11. This post is published at 1:11 too! :P And that is me being a #geek . :-B

All Things New

“Look, I am making everything new!” – Revelation 21:5 (The Message)

Hello Lord.

So it’s another year, and another blog. I was reading my old 2010 prayer and it’s kind of hard to read because it makes me feel guilty. I try to see what the past year has been for me, and as much as I would like to say that it’s was a year I spent most in love with You…I know that it wasn’t. And I’m not proud of it.

But You’re still there, and You have never left my side even if I have left You more times than I can count. Your faithfulness knows no bound, Father, and I do not deserve it, but You give it. So thank You.

Dear Jesus, I want to start 2011 right, and I want to start this blog right. I want this blog to not be just about me, but ultimately about You. Because without You, I wouldn’t even be here. I don’t want to blog just to rant, to complain or just to release whatever stress or pent-up tension. I want to blog because of You, for You and with You. Always for You, Father. Always for You. :)

Thank You Lord, for another year. Thank You for making all things new. Thank You for loving me despite my unworthiness. Thank You, thank You, thank You. :)

Here’s to 2011, and the next year and the next year after that.

I love You. ♥