This has probably been the busiest week I’ve ever had at work since I started. Have I said this before? Well, if I did, this week was just toxic. It wasn’t only full of work; but it was also stressful to the max. The earliest I’ve been able to go home since last Monday was at 7:00pm. That’s just…blah. It was so hectic that I got over my Hillsong United hangover come Monday.
Anyway, for the entire week, I feel like I was back during thesis times, only this time there’s a lot more at stake. When you’re doing your thesis, the only thing that is at stake is your personal grades. However, at work, you’re dealing with real life things, people who may not be as understanding as, say, your thesismates, when you make a mistake. I was thisclose to crying yesterday from all the stress, and if I didn’t get to talk to Tue, Happy and RJ, I don’t think I would’ve been able to have a restful night last night.
One thing I learned this week though, one thing I heard God tell me during the times I’ve been stressing out: be still. Still your heart, still your soul; I am God, I am big enough for whatever worries you. Sometimes when my heart and mind are raging, all shouting commands and worries and thoughts that I couldn’t think, I force myself to be still because there’s only one voice that really matters, His. No matter how hard the task is in front of me, no matter how there may be so many things that could go wrong, no matter how much I want to take control, no matter how much I want to just quit and forget everything, all that really matters is what God wants, what God is saying. When everything feels like it’s coming undone, keeping still is the only option left. Don’t bother trying to take even more control, being OC or letting your perfectionist side come out — those won’t work. Be still. God is in control. He won’t give you anything you can’t carry, and He’ll never let you out of His sight.
“Be still and know that I am God.”
– Psalm 46:10
The week is over. The work week, that is. No work tomorrow because of a holiday, and I was planning to get out of the house tomorrow for some needed R&R, but because of the tropical storm Reming (International Name: Durian), all my plans are as good as cancelled.
Ever since I started working, I am SO out of touch with these kinds of things. I didn’t know Milenyo was here until the day that it hit Metro Manila — can you believe that? Now I didn’t know about Reming until yesterday. I should watch more news…or at least, read news online so I won’t get left behind.
Good news is, Reming is not going to hit Metro Manila directly…but they say that’s even worse? Gah. The only thing I don’t like about this is the no electricity thing that we might experience (which I pray that we won’t…because that would be just…boring). Especially now that my iPod’s having battery issues again (drains batteries too fast. I wish replacing its batteries is as easy as looking for makita batteries…but alas. Time for a last replacement before the Apple Care ends!). Bah. I’m going to have to find ways to amuse myself once again. Like, read and read and read before darkness falls.
But please, Lord, no brownout? If it’s okay with You. *bats eyelashes*
On last bits before I leave the office: the reflections I have from the Hillsong United worship will be posted this weekend, if we have power. Hopefully, I’ll be able to post a new layout by next week too, because as much as I love this layout, it’s just not fit for Christmas. :P
Anyway, I’ll be out of here in a few. :P Have a happy long weekend everyone and keep safe. :)