First Days and Big Mouths

Today, most of the schools in the Philippines started their classes and a bunch of new people started at work today. Lots of first days, isn’t it? How exciting.

I remember last year, on the first day of classes in DLSU, I took a day off at OJT to go to school and join in the first day fun. I didn’t mind losing hours because I knew I had some people I will be able to get back to, who are waiting for me in school. I was so excited to blow off work to go there and see my friends. I quote the entry I wrote in my LJ two years ago:

I want to go to school on Monday. I want to be able to feel the first day of school woes. I want to have new filler notebooks, new pens, new school stuff and then have properly marked with subjects. I want to feel the thrill of meeting new professors and wondering if I should adjust and if I do adjust, looking around the list of available sections. I want to type the course syllabi in those two column sheets and stick them into my notebooks, be the OC girl I am. I want to be able to meet my friends at the Gokongwei lobby on the first day, be surrounded by freshmen, see the congestion of froshies in SJ walk. Hear hilarious froshie stories. Eat at Agno, or figure out where are the new places to eat. Look for the people I want to see. Go out of my way and head over to the YFC Tambayan to hang out, talk, talk talk and then when the day is over, head over to my new room in the dorm and get to know my new roommates. (May 19, 2005)

Ah, reading that just made me miss school even more. Of course, DLSU started classes about one and a half weeks ago, and weirdly enough I miss it too. I just miss the first day rush. I think the difference with this year and two years ago ((I’m not counting last summer because I was a bum then, plus I was also in school a few days after school started)) is that this year, there’s not too many people I can go back to. I mean, most of my batchmates have graduated already, and most of my YFC friends who I caught up to are not there anymore as well. But that doesn’t erase the fact that I’d love to and want to be a student again — to be a self-centered student who only cares about her studies and her allowance and not about bills, work and other adult responsibilities.

It makes me wonder why people want to finish school immediately. Why leave a life of comfort (yes, studies also means comfort, believe me) for a life full of responsibilities? Younger ones, heads up!

I wonder if I may have opened my big mouth again. I really should stop talking too much, especially about things that matter to me, the things that worry me, the things that I plan to do. Until I actually do it.

Lord, I hope I put my trust in the right person today, even if I don’t know that person as much. Please don’t make it another case of my stupid mouth. :-s

Affirm me. [-o<