31 Days

Also known as: The end of January, goal updates, and some time woes

Just like that, January is ending. Excuse me for being cliche once again, but where did this month go?

There’s something about this year that makes me want to slow it down. Maybe it’s because of that twenty-five thing. Maybe it’s because I don’t want this lovely cold weather to end yet. Maybe it’s because I feel like time really just passes by too fast and everything is passing me by. Maybe I’m just feeling all of this now because I have a monthly visitor and that has always made me feel a bit more emotional than the usual (see how easy it is to blame the hormones?).

But anyway. January is ending. There is exactly 11 months left in 2011. How is that possible?

Forgive me for being so overwhelmed by the turn of the month. I’ve been through 25 January endings in my entire life, but somehow this one just strikes me a bit more. I guess that’s what happens when you think about things too much. I don’t know if that’s good or bad.

So the usual question with this should be: how are your resolutions, so far? Well, since I didn’t really make resolutions this year save for two goals, it should be easy to answer. I don’t know if I’d like the answers…but what the heck.

Goal # 1: Driving

I can’t count how many times I wished I had my own car in the past month. It’s an itch, strange to say. I really have this feeling that I will only really have the confidence to drive if I had my own car. It’s like how I lost weight, you see: I tried exercise videos, dieting on my own, and all that, but I only really shed the extra pounds when I signed up for the gym. It’s not only about the entire gym atmosphere really, but the fact that I knew gym fees (including trainer and nutritionist fees) were being charged in my card, so I felt that I had to make the most out of it. It worked. I figured the same principle would apply with driving.

This is why I want a car.

It’s a huge investment, though. I know I can’t afford it anytime soon (especially because of Goal # 2). But man. I could count the number of times I wished so bad I had a car — then wished I knew how to drive well.

Of course, owning a car now is not really a wise thing in the Philippines, with the rising gas prices and car-related crimes and all. But I wouldn’t mind owning this pretty little thing:

Honda Jazz. ♥

I also have a feeling I’m just being a tad materialistic there.

Goal # 2: WYD in Madrid, Spain

It is a bit too early to start preparing the papers, but I have started planning my trip dates! I ran into a bit of conflict in the first dates I planned because of work (which reminds me I should write some thoughts about that), I think I have finally settled on dates that is perfectly acceptable to me. The next steps now are to collect requirements so I can start fixing the papers.

Speaking of Spain, My best friend and I were talking about trips and stuff, and a bit of quarter-life crisis (more to that on another post), and I told him that I can’t not go to this trip. I don’t know why, but I feel like this is something that I should do for myself this year, whatever other people say. I feel like I owe this to myself, at least for the part of me that yearns to do something other than what I do.

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I think the saddest thing about January ending is how the start of the year feels over. It’s February, you can’t say the year just started. The freshness is starting to fade. And there’s a sad feeling knowing that it would take 11 more months before we get to really feel that freshness again.

Then again, that is subjective. Every day is a new day, ergo, every day should have the same kind of freshness that January 1 had. It should. It’s not easy, but we all need new days. And we are given that everyday. How beautiful is that?

In less than an hour, January is going to end. I’m kind of sad that it is ending…but I am looking forward to what the February has to offer. And March. And April. And May. And…you get what I mean.

This entry felt a bit all over the place than what I originally intended. Apologies. I will try to blog more often here than I did in the next month. :)

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