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A Nugget of Wisdom from The Lion King

Well, last week wasn’t really a long week, as I predicted last Monday night. Things actually started looking up by Tuesday, and it’s funny how God surprises me by answering my prayers in the most unexpected way and at the most unexpected time. Basta, all I can say is God is good, and I know that I am in very safe hands. :)

I spent the rest of the week reading, and going out with my mom; by Friday, I went to school to support Tuesday on her defense and to meet up with some friends who I haven’t seen for a long time. My brother’s iPod went bye bye (the sad iPod picture showed…it’s cute, even if I know the iPod is dead), talked to friends and then went to the Elim Singles table talk with Happy. It was fun, and half the time Happy, Bea and I were laughing. :P Then I spent two lazy days at home, just reading and watching TV. What a life, eh?

I know this kind of bum life is going to end soon, and I am trying to prepare myself. Or, starting to prepare myself. Thing is, I don’t know how…and I have this thing of “crossing the bridge” when I get there. Tomorrow is a day that I know would change my life (I was thinking of something less drastic, but I realized that tomorrow would probably change my life) and the choice I would make tomorrow morning would determine where I will be for the next two years or so. I’ve been waiting for this, though, but I still can’t help but be kind of scared because it’s a major decision. As in MAJOR. I’m kind of nervous, but as I was praying earlier today, I just let God handle it. After all, it’s useless to worry about tomorrow today, when today has enough worries of its own.

I’ve learned in the past days that it’s more important to deal with what you have now than to worry about what is about to happen. Take note that it’s not wrong to prepare for tomorrow, but it is wrong to keep your eyes on tomorrow and forget to deal with today. So now what I’m learning is to totally banish worrying from my life. As Simba, Pumbaa and Timon said, Hakuna Matata. No worries, because God is in control. I should not worry because God is taking care of me. I shouldn’t worry because I know that God loves me and whatever happens to me is part of His will. I shouldn’t worry because that’s just going to make things worse. You know? Worrying breeds some kind of fear of tomorrow, and God does not want us to live with fear.

Of course, it’s hard, but what matters is I try. :) So why don’t you try it with me? Try removing the word “worry” in your vocabulary for a day. Whenever you find yourself worrying, turn away from it, look to God and remind yourself that God is big enough and He is in control. See what you feel afterward. :)

Altogether now, HAKUNA MATATA! :)

And yet more job hunting thoughts

Before anything else, I finally uploaded my online portfolio. Do check it out, especially if you have jobs for me. Haha. :D

After two weeks of inactivity with my job hunting, I’m back to doing it again. After the call I was waiting for didn’t come, I fell in some sort of sad mode. Not depression mode exactly; it’s like when you’re waiting for something to come but it was delayed and you don’t know what to do. Ah, disappointment, that’s the term. Plus there were other things that occupied my mind the past weeks that I fell into some sort of limbo. I wanted to have a job, but I’m afraid to be rejected. I’m sure a lot of people went through this, and I guess this is my time.

Last week, after uploading this layout, I was working on my online portfolio. At the same time, I was tying up the phone line at home with the Internet because I was afraid of whatever calls that might come for me. I know I have a phone call phobia, but it was never with incoming calls. It’s just that…I was afraid of getting job offers from companies I don’t want to apply to and then tell them that I’m not interested…or get job offers and actually go to the interviews but end up not wanting the job anyway. I’m also afraid of explaining to my mom why I don’t want the job…because I don’t want to sound picky, even if I actually am being picky.

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More job hunting thoughts

Yesterday was a long day. I had two interviews — one in the morning and another one in the afternoon — and a group meeting at night. The interviews…well, they’re pretty draining and the moment I got out of PBCOM Tower after my second interview, I was just brain tired already.

My weariness was lifted thanks to my group meeting (emphasis on the quotes :p) with Micko, Rye and Ramie, otherwise known as my thesismates. Ramie came fetching me in his brand new Honda Jazz (haha, because of you, I want to have a Honda Jazz more now!) and then we fetched Rye from his house (thesis overnight memories) and then met up with Micko at Seattle’s Best in Festival Mall. Micko, being the only one who has had a stable job among all of us, treated us to snacks at SBC. We were supposed to watch Click but we ended up just talking the night away while walking around the mall and settling down for dinner at Tokyo Tokyo. Haha, fun times. :) Of course, none of us would admit it seriously, but we all did miss each other. :D I love how being a small block bonded us into what we are right now, and I love how my thesismates and I are more than just thesismates but also real friends (altogether now…awww!). Next up should be an IST dinner, especially now that the other remaining THES2 groups just passed their final defenses. :) Wohoo, IST rulez, yo!

Anyway, I was supposed to have an interview today too…but after some thinking and talking with my brother on my way home, I decided not to go anymore because I don’t really like the job. I felt kind of guilty especially because the HR officer who interviewed me was very nice to give me tips and such about working, and I worried as well, because what if I’m passing up a big opportunity on this thing by not going?

Around last week (was it only just last week?), as I was on my way to an exam, I was asking myself if I am actually looking for a job that I like, or if I’m looking for a job just to say that I have a job. But that’s wrong, isn’t it? For me, I mean. I’ve always wished and prayed for a job that would not seem like a job to me because I like it. So why am I not looking for that?

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I was just scheduled for a job interview on Friday morning. And I’m scared.

Just the other day I was thinking of how my life is going to be in the future. I have to admit that I am seriously starting to enjoy staying at home and being with my family and being available to help anyone to needs help. Being free to visit DLSU and attend some prayer meetings, and all that. I’m not minding being a “bum” anymore, at least for now. Besides I still have some freelance work to finish, and I’m quite content with this.

Plus the fact that I feel like I’m looking for a job just because I want to say that I have a job and I’m earning a living and all that…I asked myself: why are you searching that way? Shouldn’t you be searching and aiming for the thing that you want to do for the rest of your life? And so I decided to do just so…because life’s too short for me to not start doing something I want to do for my life (and when I say what I want to do, I really mean what God wants me to do in my life — I believe that God’s will is indeed the deepest desires of my heart).

And then I get this call…and I’m all bothered again. I have to admit that having a job is a lovely idea, and at least I get to do something…but what if this job is not what I want to do for my life? To be honest, I have no idea with what the job being offered to me is. And I’m doing this because…well, the HR person who’s contacting us sounds really nice, and it’s kind of hard to say no to her. Okay, let’s not forget the experience of being interviewed and all is there too.

Argh. I feel really shaken because of this. I’ve already said yes, and I guess I’ll be going, but I’m just afraid. With the interview and the entire idea of actually having a job already. If I get accepted here, I might start working by August because I put that in my application (unless they say otherwise). And August is what, next week already? I’m not ready!!! Well, not yet.

BUT…who says I’m accepted already? I think I’m afraid because I’m basing it on the thoughts that I will get this job. And I haven’t yet. I’m thinking of the future all over again; I really should stop that. ONE DAY AT A TIME, TINA!

Whew. I just needed to rant that out. Back to freelance work. I’ll think of this AFTER I finish this module.

Afternoon productivity and job thoughts

Today was a relatively relaxed day, after getting a lot of sleep last night. :) Except when I started doing an inventory of my books, which took me around all afternoon. But it was fun. I realized that I lost some of the books that I loved to read before, such as those Sweet Valley Twins books Goodbye Middle School and Twins at College. I know I had them there somewhere…unless someone borrowed it and I forgot again. Or they’re just somewhere around the room, waiting to be unearthed. Ohwell.

But get this. I have a total of 324 books. That includes all novels, series, self-help/religious and even the kids books I have in my room. I can’t believe it. But then again, I’ll be selling some of it sometime soon, once I get to sorting the list out and send them to Booktopia. I could use some space and cash. :) Now the thing is, what should I let go of. I should start that tonight. :D

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  • It just occured to me that I didn’t really check how this site would look in IE because I’ve always been so used to Firefox. It doesn’t look bad exactly, just a bit…spacey. I must fix that. And work on a new theme as well. But for now, use Firefox! :) I’ll get to IE soon enough.
  • I convinced my mom to go to OMF Lit again earlier, so we oculd take advantage of their sale which would end tomorrow. In turn, I got four books! :) Yay!
    1. Searching for God Knows What by Donald MillerMixz recommended this book in her blog waaaay back and since then I’ve been on the lookout for it. I’ve seen Blue Like Jazz and I’ve been meaning to get a copy, but I wanted to get this book first. I thought I’d have to ask my dad to buy it for me, but turns out they have it at OMF. Yay!
    2. Blink by Ted Dekker – I was planning to buy The Circle Trilogy, but I couldn’t find a paperback version of Black. I didn’t want to buy only one book from the trilogy because that would leave me hanging, so I decided to buy Blink instead. Looks good, and from my experience with reading Thr3e, I think I won’t be disappointed in this book.
    3. Savannah from Savannah by Denise Hildreth – I needed another dose of Christian chicklit, and I was debating between Sisterchicks Down Under and My Life As a Doormat, but nothing quite fit what I wanted. Then i saw this, I liked it. And got it. :) Haha.
    4. Savannah by the Sea by Denise Hildreth – I just realized that I got the wrong book. Darn, this is the third book in the Savannah series, not the second. Darn it. Oh well, I’m gonna have to find a way to get the second one. Haha. :P At least I have this now, but I’m thinking of not reading this until I get the second one. Hmmm.
  • My dad’s going back to Saipan on Sunday. :( Is it just me or is there some kind of sad feeling here at home because of that?
  • I applied for my first job today, much thanks to Ganns‘ referral. Now I should get back to working on my portfolio.

Reviews for High School Musical (♥ ♥ ♥ ) and Thr3e coming up this week. :)